From my notes on the last episode of Babylon 5: I didn’t expect this to get to me — seen it more than a few times before. But the music, the credits — the end. Death, saying goodbye — more beyond. Remembering. Friends. A feeling that “we got it right” with no talk of regrets [...]
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I cried last night (burbling up, surprising) had some–probably psychosomatic–scar-area pain; but trends seem to indicate that it will hurt less each year.
Anna is DEATHFATZ, Long Live Anna
Posted: April 27, 2010 in UncategorizedTags: body, fat, gratitude, says WHO?
So I weighed myself for the first time in about two years? According to the (*cough*crap*cough*) BMI, I am oh so morbidly obese, and have probably been for some time. Get this, at my thinnest, I was still “overweight” (I weighed more than 136 pounds) and have been “obese” since before I had kids. Will [...]
Oh but TV birth scenes are horrible. I thought I was going to get through this one in St. Elsewhere, because hello, guest star Robert Picardo! But purple pushing, episiotomy, baby in need of resuscitation and the doctor not telling the parents what was going on…it was all too much so I changed the channel [...]
The Lesson
Posted: April 16, 2010 in UncategorizedTags: anger, babies, betrayal, birth, body, depression, God, me, the future?, UBAC
“When I have a baby, bad things happen.” That is the lesson I have learned.
The most recent post at Shapely Prose takes a look at the problem of the Nice Guy, and proposes that the Nice Guy and the Jerk are pretty much the same. Nice Guyness rests on the idea that if the guy in question acts [and sometimes it is an act] nice enough towards the woman [...]
A month from today, Lord willing, we fly. A week from today is the last work night, and then we start moving out of the flat. I’ve packed up my craft supplies (that’s what’s important, right?) and started taking apart the painted boxes, but clothes…oh clothes. A handful of sizes and dozens of pounds past, [...]
It’s obvious by now that this is one of those pick-lint-out-of-my-belly-button-for-all-to-see blogs. If I held a higher standard for myself I would write even less than I do already. My first blog was born of depression in darkness, and this one continues in hope but still in solitude. Will it survive my new life?
In my dream the evil–robot women?–chased and threatened me, desirous of fashion. Maybe they were a bit of crazy me. In my waking I can dwell on what I will eat and drink and wear, and what the world will think of me because of these things. In my long night hours I can absorb…messages [...]
Relational Insights, Devolving Into Rant
Posted: February 22, 2010 in UncategorizedTags: a little ranty, Body + Fat, family, fat, Friends, says WHO?
The conversation going on on my facebook profile has made me think. Save for my sister, everyone commenting who is related to me seems to have a very different perspective on the subject at hand than I do. Non-relatives, while not completely aligned with me, have made more palatable contributions. You can’t pick your friend’s [...]
